"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
- Philippians 4:6-7 -
This summer has been a wild ride to say the least. My husband started a new job, we put our adorable, yellow house on the market "for sale by owner," it sold much quicker than anticipated, we couldn't find find a home in our new community, and we had no idea what would happen with our oldest son for school come fall. Ahhh!!!!!!!!
Fast toward to today, God orchestrated things in such a way we couldn't have even imagined for ourselves.
However, He left us blind to His plan for longer than desired.
When our house sold quicker than excepted, we thought looking for our next house would be fun. Instead, I cried after every open house because each home clearly hadn't had any TLC for years. As one realtor said, "There are people who love their home and people who live in their home." We just got more and more discouraged.
I thought I embraced change, but I discovered that all this was too much for me to handle. As time went by and no place to live, fear overtook me. I couldn't eat, lost 11 lbs., couldn't sleep, had dozens of panic attacks, and cried a lot. Although I knew God was in control, anxiety ate me alive. I'm soooooo thankful to my husband, parents, siblings, extended family, and many prayer warriors who interceded on my behalf.
Also, it really helped me to write down scripture on post-it notes and place them in spots to constantly remind me of God's Word. When anxiety would creep it's fingers around my mind, I would repeat Deuteronomy 31:6 over and over and over again,
"Be strong and courageous. Don't be afraid . . . for the Lord your God goes with you . . .”
Long story short, God provided the PERFECT home for us that is currently under construction and will be completed before the end of the 1st quarter of school allowing my son to begin the school year in the new district. In the meantime, our pastor offered for us to live in a house the church owns until our new house is complete. So 95% of our possession are stored away in PODS while we live with the bare necessities and no internet. Yes, no internet. (Insert Edvard Munch scream face here.)
I can look back now and see God's hand at work in every detail of this new adventure. He takes care of the faithful. So why did I feel this way?
All I do know is that God needed me to put complete faith in Him because He can do things way beyond our understanding.
I tried to rationalize what He could do for us, but He works beyond what our mind and senses can even comprehend.
When have you tried to rationalize God? How has He proven His faithfulness to you?
If you don't know Jesus, ask Him to reveal His glory to you. What's the worst that could happen? God speed, my friend!